We are into July now and I'm still struggling to find what I want to read. To be honest I have started quite a few books but haven't gotten far in them because I'm just not interested. I used to bust through this by switching genres or reading formats from e-books to audio but I don't even feel like doing that. I'm just not feeling reading and it's honestly one of the worst feelings ever.
I've taken so many breaks from reading and it's depressing because I look at my shelves and want to read but nothing is holding my attention. I'm even faltering when it comes to my journaling and crafting. I know part of this is the procrastination brought on by seeking perfectionism; and the other is living through a pandemic and being "an essential worker" who deals with healthcare all day. Even within the healthcare setting, we have people who are spouting the foolishness from facebook and the goddamn qanon bullshit and I'm just so damn exhausted from it all. I know that I am in need of new coping mechanisms to get around it because what used to work isn't working anymore and I miss reading.
As a way to ease me back into reading I'm going to put 3 books on my list to read this month, and none of them I have to finish this month. I do however want to make serious headway in them. I'm going to cheat a little because I know I'm almost done with the first one, but that will be motivation to keep going:
Dark Song by Christine Feehan This is book 30 in the Carpathian series, and normally I fly through these but this one was heavy and I just couldn't consume it all at once.
They Were Her Property: White Women as Slave Owners in the American South by Stephanie E Jones- Rodgers. I'm pretty sure this is what kicked me into my reading slump. Like I grew up with the story of the White Wtich of Rose Hall and was well aware of the cruelty of whites when it came to slavery, but some of the first accounts here just took me down. How people could be so cruel then raise children and have these mother fuckers in our faces today telling us to get over it. Reading this book?? It makes me look at white people as a whole in a very different way. If books like this and the concept of Critical Race Theory bother you, you're the mother fuckers I'm talking about.
I've also started and want to finish Witches Steeped in Gold by Ciannon Smart. I was listening on audio, it was going great then one of the characters began to do too much stupid stuff for me and I had to step away. Like things were building so well, then she kept whining about what she's expected to be while at the same time glorying in using the magic that came from the role she was supposed to be. It got annoying so I took a step back. I'll go back in with the understanding that that is YA and as young kids, they don't have it all figured out yet and they are going to make lots of mistakes; so even if I want to side-eye them, I probably would have been right there with them making the stupid short-sighted choices as well.
That is going to be all for me this month What do you plan o get into? Have you read any of the ones I've shared? Let me know in the comments and I'll chat with you later.
Happy Reading my loves
